The Second Step

My husband and I recently went to LA for a little quick get-a-way. In our short stay we were able to see a lot. The crazies on Venice beach, the big houses in Beverly Hills, the palm trees, the Hollywood Walk of Fame and we even got to watch a movie being filmed. It was so much fun. As a theatre major I was very intrigued. Very!

As my husband was getting a tattoo, I met up with an old buddy from College. He had been in LA for eleven years and he knew a lot of fun places to take me. My husband was getting a lot of ink, so we had a lot of time. It was Sweet! He knew everyone! He knew someone that worked at Paramount, so he and I just drove on in and walked around. Again, the actor inside of me wanted to run on the set and say, “I’ll do whatever you want me to do!” I was itching to show this town my talent. Everywhere we drove there were “Star Wagons”, folks standing outside some building talking to themselves (auditions). Models holding their portfolio off to a “Go See”. This was the business.

Now, this is what I noticed, no telling what else was going around this extremely eccentric city. But this was show business.

As my friend and I were talking, he asked me why I never came here to “try it out”. His voice was so careful, afraid that maybe he was going to upset me. This was my dream after all, to come out to LA and “make it”. So, had I lost my dream, did I settle? Was I now a stay at home mom that watched earnestly the Academy Awards wishing that were me? The answer, was no.

To be honest I figured out that I just didn’t have what it takes. At least that’s what I told him. But, I just simply fell in love with my life. I absolutely love what I do! Really. It was really hard to convince him of that, he kept saying, “But it was your dream…you never even tried it.”

I didn’t have to try it.

It was neat sitting in that bar in the middle of the day looking out at the Hollywood sign and just thinking….Thanks for my life!